In and Out of Surgery!

My sweet pea is out of surgery and doing well!!!

Ryan had no idea what was coming, but sitting on the floor in the pre-op waiting room with the anti-anxiety meds kicking in and blowing bubbles with mom, she couldn't have cared less.  Rumor has it she was extremely charming in the operating room (big shocker I know).  Before they sedated Ryan she was throwing her washcloth on the floor and exclaiming ''uh-oh!" then flashing her scrunchy face at everyone in the room.  Her surgeon has been AMAZING...he is so kind, caring, sincere. He said he couldn't be happier with how well she did in surgery, the hole in her heart is patched (he gave me the swatch remnant) and expects her recovery to go well. 

Ryan is  in the PICU (currently shift change and families are booted for an hour) is on oxygen to help with the hyper-tension and is also on some high blood pressure meds. She is running a low fever which I'm told is common after surgery. The docs are managing her pain with morphine and Tylenol.  She has been in and out of sleep, is quite scared, has tried to climb out of her crib twice and finally got to drink an ounce of water.

It's so hard to see my sweet girl scared and in pain and know there is nothing I can do to make it better.  For a mom that's the worst feeling in the world. AND I'm feeling relieved that she is on this side of things. The next couple of days are going to be long but I know it has to be done, that  it's just a moment of time which will soon pass and will be worth all the pain and struggle.

From the bottom of my heart - THANK YOU for all the prayers and emails and phone calls. Will check in again tomorrow!